day 1

hey i actually never done this before but i guess its easier to tell everyone u dont kno ur feelings then one person u do kno....oh and also if i miss alot of spelling thats because i cant spell all that good. Well hear it goes. I am a college student who goes to a community college and lives on his own. I have been single for 2 years which is way to long for me. But i guess its to b expected sence i am not that popular of a guy and probly never will b. the last relationship i was in ended on july 20th of 2005. It was a real hard break up for me and i guess it still is hard. I was never really good at opening up to anyone then but i managed for her and well she cheated on me and then left me to rot. But yeah i guess thats why i never really have been able to open up and really share my feelings to anyone that i have feelings for. There is one girl, but the whole long distance theing does not really work out for me and i want to tell her how i feel about her but i am afraid that if i do it will end badly. So i do like i always do and i write about it. Not usually to everyone i dont kno but i write poetry to myself and maybe one day when i am dead and if shes still alive she will find it and read it and kno how i felt about her. i hate being closed but it gives me a feeling of well being and safty that i have never had. I mean if i dont tell anyone how i feel they cant brake me heart again, right?? well i guess thats all for now but i will be back tomorrow.