day 4

hey again everybody...i am kinda confused today because i started out today thinking bout one girl but im ending it thinking bout a diff girl....but i saw a really cool movie today called disturba...but yeah i had a pretty cool day i think i am going to go tho...."life is like a coin spend it how u like but u can only spend it once, so spend it wisly."


JLucky night yall

day three

so well yeah i am back again....and guess what idk i just do that somtimes....but neways there is this girl i have known all my life and like she is perfect and so beautiful and so great with a wonderful personality and everthing i cant help how much i lie her....but here in lies the problem like i said in like day one it is easier to tell hundreds of people that u dont kno then one person that u do...and i am not on that opens up ease.... and well i just cant tell her how i feel... fear of rejection and fear of ever thing is holding me back but i guess things will work out but i hope in the end i end up with her. i have decided that i am going to end yall with a quote now at the end of each day....weather its one i read or made up i am....words are words and feelings are feeling, they both can lie to u, but girl these words of feelings i express to u, is the only truth i know. ME...well i will ttyl....BYE!!!!!!!!




JLucky

hey again everybody....im back tonight like i said. but anyways yeah today was iight i guess i was supposed to actually go out to a club but u kno the line was very long and we did not fell like waiting but u kno so we went and ate. oh i forgot to tell everyone last night i am a rapper yes u heard it right i am a rapper....but u kno i am happy today for the most part i worked and had a pretty good day but i got to get up in the morning to work again but i do have this weekend of so i cant wait....but i guess i am going to go now i will b on again tomorrow.



JLucky

day 1

hey i actually never done this before but i guess its easier to tell everyone u dont kno ur feelings then one person u do kno....oh and also if i miss alot of spelling thats because i cant spell all that good. Well hear it goes. I am a college student who goes to a community college and lives on his own. I have been single for 2 years which is way to long for me. But i guess its to b expected sence i am not that popular of a guy and probly never will b. the last relationship i was in ended on july 20th of 2005. It was a real hard break up for me and i guess it still is hard. I was never really good at opening up to anyone then but i managed for her and well she cheated on me and then left me to rot. But yeah i guess thats why i never really have been able to open up and really share my feelings to anyone that i have feelings for. There is one girl, but the whole long distance theing does not really work out for me and i want to tell her how i feel about her but i am afraid that if i do it will end badly. So i do like i always do and i write about it. Not usually to everyone i dont kno but i write poetry to myself and maybe one day when i am dead and if shes still alive she will find it and read it and kno how i felt about her. i hate being closed but it gives me a feeling of well being and safty that i have never had. I mean if i dont tell anyone how i feel they cant brake me heart again, right?? well i guess thats all for now but i will be back tomorrow.